Whispers from a Spiritual Garden

Here I am it’s the last day so time for reflection, over this week I have been looking into the mirror of my soul and was surprised what I found reflected back.

Here is the Elevator Speech I worked on and was prepared to deliver on Thursday evening;

“I offer a service to people who are finding or feeling themselves trapped and in need of support and guidance.  I listen to people with an open mind, not allowing my own judgements to inform my listening.  With an open heart I offer a set of practices or interventions that aim to release the trapped state of being, which I support through my open willingness to offer an authentic relationship, whilst providing a safe, contained space for the people I work with to grow into their own fullness and freedom.”

But as I stepped up to make my speech, I turned to face the audience and realised that what I had written was not what I wanted to say, what I wanted to say was – I have been involved within Integral for many years, I have seen the world through four lens, travelled through the Stages of spiritual growth, and structures of my development, in all the Lines, and know what my Type is.

I have seen my one true original face and met the master.

But you know, in all of this adventure and it has been wild, I did not make friends, so now after all this travelling through the dimensions of my being the only thing I need is friendship.

And that is what I take from this spiritual garden that I am resting in.

The need for friends.

“In all of this I lost compassion for myself, I did not take my needs into consideration.”

I have projects, many that I am working on with James, I have ideas of how I want to bring AQAL to the world, but you know in all of this I lost compassion for myself, I did not take my needs into consideration. I hid from myself by diving into systems or the LR (Lower Right Quadrant – systems).

I had a need to understand how it all works, how everything fits together. But I was just hiding myself from myself, I was not really turning to myself.

I was hiding in the workshops and the words. And now I can no longer hide, I announced my needs to the world, to a group of people who all hold the most advanced consciousness available to human kind.

I was witness in my vulnerability and yes it was terrifying and yes I was in a state of overwhelming fear.

“And this is the joy of an Integral Consciousness, you are always held and supported, you are always seen as part of the divine manifestation of God.”

But I was supported, I was held. And this is the joy of an Integral Consciousness, you are always held and supported, you are always seen as part of the divine manifestation of God.

You are always seen as your true original face.

This week has been one heck of a journey, I never expected it to be anything more; however, I did not expect it to be a dark and personal journey.

It was painful and, yes of course I am coming back for more. Because that’s what evolution is, a painful revealing, and a joyful growth in spirit unfolding.

Just Saturday left now, a day in Down Town Boulder, making sure I do not go into the Apple Shop.

See you all back in the UK, if reading these blogs has inspired you or you are wanting to find out what AQAL is all about then do please book yourself a place on the next full day ILP session I am running in May.

Take Care Love Light and Joy.

Gary

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